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[02 Jun 2008|09:29am] |
that when i was younger, things that were bothering me during the day would somehow be gone by night. Now, things always seem bad when I go to sleep and feel almost completely better when I wake up. Last night I recieved some pretty sad news, but as sad as it was my reasons for crying were a bit more selfish. More than anything it was over this horrible feeling that I will once again be the one to give more. I dealt with this for way too long in the last one, and it makes me scared to think I may end up in the same unfulfilling situation. That's the real reason.
I was however able to have a goodnights rest. I didn't even stay up thinking about it because unlike in the past, even in the saddest of times I get a sense that I'm not alone in how I'm feeling and I get his words to back it up. It's these things that keep me happy. Happier than I've been in a long time.
I had a dream last night where Ronnie kept trying to convince me I was sad. He kept saying the same thing in a million different manners, and no matter how much he spoke I still felt happy. As soon as I found my purse, I got up and left, not even looking back.
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[02 Jun 2008|12:33pm] |
ok so it's official i can't take that class in miami dade
so i might have to move up and do it in fsu for summer c
but to go, or not to go?
if i get a job there, then everything should be fine... if i don't cristi is gonna be so poor =[
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